Date With Chicago Surgeon

Chicago Surgeon actually came into my life a few years ago - 4 or 5 years ago probably. We had talked a lot but had never actually met...the truth is we came to this roadblock because being vegetarian is something that's really important to me and not being one is something that is really important to him - and we just couldn't find a compromise. It became such an issue before we ever met that things eventually just fizzled. Anyway he came back into my life a few weeks ago and we've been talking again ever since. He actually drunk called me one night too (always nice to be the recipient of one of these)! He was going to be in my city this weekend for a conference and thus, the date.

Now I was really good about Eagle on Thursday night, probably because NJ Doc was interesting and my mind just didn't go there. Friday night turned out to be a whole different story. You see, Eagle was headed to Atlantic City to gamble with one of his friends and then was going to spend the weekend there for a bachelor party. And I was leaving on Saturday to go out of the country for a week for work. So I talked to him from work on Friday afternoon - we joked around for a few minutes, laughed, and I wished him luck at the casino's and he wished me a safe flight. He told me he was available by cell phone and blackberry all weekend. Hmmm....okay?! I responded by saying I was available all week by email. God, I wanted what he said to mean something but I let it go.

On my way home from work, I texted Eagle (shame on me!) telling him to win big like he had at pool. He texted me that he was standing outside the Coach Store and asked if i needed/wanted anything - funny because when he & I went to AC we were actually going to go there but the store closed by the time we reached. So I told him he was being a tease and left it at that. Then when I got home from work and was getting ready for my date with Chicago Surgeon, Eagle texted me about how he was doing at the casino's. We exchanged a few texts - actually all the way until my cab pulled up in front of the restaurant I was going to. So needless to say, Eagle was on my mind - but as I walked in, I put him to the side and decided to concentrate on what was ahead...

Chicago Surgeon was sitting at the bar, waiting for me. He seemed excited to finally meet me, and the way he was looking at me made me a little self-conscious initially. We sat down for dinner and he was a total gentlemen. He ordered us a really nice bottle of my favorite kind of wine and let me choose the appetizers, telling me he really didn't mind eating vegetarian. The wine was really good, the appetizer excellent. Our main course was awful (his was tuna - yuck - and he actually ended up sending it back). We made up for it by getting some chocolate dessert :) The conversation....well it reminded me, along with the talks we'd been having the past few weeks, why things had probably fizzled. It was the meat/no meat thing for sure - but he is also your typical surgeon with a God-like complex. I admit, this is something that I have been attracted to for years - but now, not so much. Attitude and a little bit of cockiness is nice, but this was a bit over the top. Granted, I understand where it comes from - literally holding lives in your hands, hell I'd be like that too. But I don't know - it just wasnt doing it for me tonight. But then all the times he was joking around with me in gujarati, it was really funny!

So, yeah, Eagle crossed my minds a few times tonight during dinner. Little things kept triggering it. Like when Chicago Surgeon was telling me how he hated hot weather - I kept thinking about how Eagle always turns the heat up for me when I'm around because he knows I can't stand it cold. And more than anything, I was thinking about him and dying to text him to see how his gambling was going. Initially I was actually really excited to meet Chicago Surgeon but I guess it didn't turn out as I had thought.

When I got home around 1:30am, yes, I texted Eagle and we exchanged a few texts. But I am going to be really good - I am not going to text him tomorrow before I leave for the airport. Plus he's at his bachelor party. And anyway, he could text me if he wanted to, right?!

Self-control, I must practice self-control.